Another hectic day, another lonely day, it is one of those blank night which nobody desires to have. Love life has been eclipsed. Although I am very secure in my workplace, still sometimes people wondered why do I behave in a peculiar way. No explanation, no discussion, I am so because I want to be so.I am pretty normal now. She was nowhere in the scene yesterday night. She was in a very good mood. The day before yesterday she was more jovial as that day she was looking nice in mini skirt. My utility in her life has been almost over like a drug becomes after its expiry date. I was a bundle of consumer goods which has been recently expired. But, no matter, the experiences I gathered were more than its worth.
Hence, it is final now. There is no more question, no more doubt, everything is distinct, unambiguous and final. The fate of love affair has been buried deep within the Graveyard of time, the most powerful, enigmatic and least understood agent.
Love remains a mirage for me, the definition of love since I have attained puberty has been changed from more idealistic towards a relatively realistic nature. But, alas! Everything I have spent has just ended in a thick patches of smoke, nothing more than that, nothing less than that. I am unceremoniously dumped into the pages of history, oh what a sensation it is! Extra ordinary gift from an Extra Ordinary person.
7th January, 2011. Friday
Finally I realize that life is just like a video game in combat mode, a simple mistake and you're out of the game forever. Unlike video game, in life there is no second game or replay. It's verdict is very simple. "You are finished off". Life is really very brutal. I have tried enough to re-tame my wildness and frequent swings of moods her exit had made! But, I was utterly unsuccessful instead. Why did these happen to me? What were my faults? No one knows but her! So, where am I floating towards? Is there be any destination? No one knows but my Lord.
10th January, 2011: Monday
Fate is really hilarious! Who knows which is which and who is who? No one knows and no one will ever know! Life is a dark mystery and most of the time its effects can be felt but a complete understanding of the every nuances of life is a destiny wrapped with the clouds of dark mystery. No one really knows, no one!
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